Weigh In Day- 233.6

So I walked in feeling really good about my weight loss this week I was really hoping for 2.2lbs and I thought I would hit it but I hit 1.8 loss. Which is still good by all means but I reallllyy wanted my 2.2 I want my Mani/pedi dammit! Haha so now I am .4lbs away from 10lbs it feels like it's taking forever!

Anyways so there is this guy at work and he is doing the Optifast diet through Kaiser. It is a strict diet plan full of only their shakes and bars and they are not allowed any other food. He definitely needs to be on some sort of diet and at least this is medically supervised; however, everyday at work he is eating some food that was found in the breakroom. Chinese, truffles, cookies, etc. I hate to say it, but I get disgusted. How can you eat that much, one and two you are supposed to be dieting!!!! I know it's so horrible of me to say and I wonder if people feel the same way about me when I decide to have a small piece of candy or French fries? Why do such a strict diet if you can't stick to it? What happens when the program is over? He hasn't fixed any of his food addiction problems or learned how to eat in the world. Bah maybe it's the PMS. Lol

Well I hope everyone is doing great on their journeys and good luck!!!

30 Days of Me- Day 9

Day 9- A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most:

My best friend Kristin I have known her for almost 7 years and she has definitely had my back through my ups downs, she is amazing. My husband is definitely a close runner up for this spot, but since I have known this girl almost quadruple the amount of time I have known my husband she takes the lead. Plus I think she has seen me cry more lol.

As for today it is Superbowl Sunday and I definitely keeping my fingers crossed that I do not go off the deep end today. I tried to fill my house with healthy food or lowfat versions of the typical superbowl fare, so we will see. I am sure Joe (my personal trainer) is going to kill us tomorrow to make us all regret today...

Here is to another week of not being able to feel my legs!!

Weigh In Day- 235.4

Oh ya I lost 4.4 lbs this week!!! I am super excited especially after a 1 lb gain last week, but of course my brain automatically derails to "how much of this weight loss was my hard work? And how much of me being sick and not really eating come into play?" So I am nervous that next week will reflect a gain to normalize this week. Ugh I just wish I could be happy about it and not immediately self depricate. Well I hope this is for real and I hope I don't start to think that I can "afford" to eat a bacon ultimate cheeseburger from Jack n the Box.

So is anyone doing anything for Super Bowl? I am getting my cardio in early on both days in effort to kick this snack filled weekend in the ass. I bought a veggie tray, cheese and meat, and a spinach dip. We are making our own personalized pizza so I can control the fat and I am also making a low fat cheesecake I saw on Gina's Skinny Taste website. I am hoping by keeping the items lower in fat if I do overindulge a bit at least there is no guessing on the point values when I made it :)

Love you all keep up the great work

30 days of Me- Day 8

My dearest mother she can always make me laugh!!!

Sorry so short today I can only breathe out of one nostril :(

30 Days of Me- Day 7

I feel bad I have been so off with these I should be on Day 8 I think, but I have been so sick and Monday was my first day with my personal trainer and today, 4 days later, I can finally walk again. The last few days I just wanted to lay in bed in a ball. I am not looking forward to next Monday, I am scared. He has me doing some workouts that are impossible for me-- assisted dips, pull ups...did he not see how much I weigh?? And he wants me to do 3 reps of 15?? I CANT EVEN DO 1!!! Ugh. Plus my cardio workouts have been sucking because I hae been so sick I cant even breathe.


Day 7-a picture of my most treasured item.
Well since my husband isnt technically an item I guess I cant put him up and that would eliminate my doggy too. Soo hmmm here it is:

This is Lester, he is manatee. My mom got him for me when my first boyfriend broke up with me when I was 15, 11 years later he is still with me. The story is we went to Florida and I saw a stuffed manatee when we landed, but I figured I would buy him when we returned so I didnt have to carry him around everywhere, well I looked everywhere for a stuffed manatee in Florida for two weeks while we were there and could never find one. But my mom is one of those thoughtful people who remember things years later and she must have found one. So there he is, I cant even imagine how many tears this poor stuffed animal has gone through...

30 Days of Me- Day 5 and 6

I am a little behind so I decided to combine Day 5 and Day 6

Day 5- A picture of my favorite memory. Of course would be wedding day...

Day 6- Who would you want to change lives with for the day?

I am not sure there is anyone I would want to change lives with. Do I want more money? YES Do I want to weigh less- YES Do I want kids? YES Do I want a personal chef? YES Do I want a personal driver? YES Do i want a nanny eventually? YES

But I would like all of this and be me!!