Weigh In Day- 233.6

So I lost 1.4lbs. I finally hit my 10lbs! But at the same time I am upset that it wasn't more. How do you guys get over that feeling of that's a good loss but still upset? And reading all of your blogs and seeing people have lost 50-60 pounds that seems like a year away i just wanna cry Why can't I just weigh in one week and it say -10 lbs? While I totally understand the concept of this being a lifestyle change and I don't plan on ever going back to the way I was eating I just wish I could see the positive benefits sooner.

Weigh In- 234

I meant to post this on Saturday, but it seems it didnt go through

So today was my weigh in day.... I gained .4lbs not bad after a week and 1/2 of vacation and eating alot of crappy food. I am determined to at least hit my 10lb mark which is .6lbs which should be easy. I really want my 10lb goal of a mani/pedi I cant believe how long it has taken!! I would love to lose 3lbs and get my 5% at the same time, but I dont want to set myself up for disappointment.

My trainer this week killed me; my thighs and back are still screaming at me from Monday, and we only have three more workouts with him. It is slightly bittersweet, I am looking forward to a break from my Monday night beatings, but he also said the workouts are going to get harder :(. Hubby and I decided that we are going to do another 10wk program like this for the summer, it starts in May. He has me running on the treadmill now instead of my favorite elliptical so I am not to thrilled about my workouts this week, but I'm going to do them.

I measured myself this week as well and originally I was really sad because I thought I hadnt lost any inches and I was wondering how that was possible when my clothes were fitting better, but I had the wrong original measurement! I have lost 3" inches from my waist 1" from my arms, 1" from my thigh and 1 1/2" from my chest... so that definitely made me feel a little better.

XOXO....

Weigh In Day- 233.6

So I walked in feeling really good about my weight loss this week I was really hoping for 2.2lbs and I thought I would hit it but I hit 1.8 loss. Which is still good by all means but I reallllyy wanted my 2.2 I want my Mani/pedi dammit! Haha so now I am .4lbs away from 10lbs it feels like it's taking forever!

Anyways so there is this guy at work and he is doing the Optifast diet through Kaiser. It is a strict diet plan full of only their shakes and bars and they are not allowed any other food. He definitely needs to be on some sort of diet and at least this is medically supervised; however, everyday at work he is eating some food that was found in the breakroom. Chinese, truffles, cookies, etc. I hate to say it, but I get disgusted. How can you eat that much, one and two you are supposed to be dieting!!!! I know it's so horrible of me to say and I wonder if people feel the same way about me when I decide to have a small piece of candy or French fries? Why do such a strict diet if you can't stick to it? What happens when the program is over? He hasn't fixed any of his food addiction problems or learned how to eat in the world. Bah maybe it's the PMS. Lol

Well I hope everyone is doing great on their journeys and good luck!!!

Weigh In Day- 235.4

Oh ya I lost 4.4 lbs this week!!! I am super excited especially after a 1 lb gain last week, but of course my brain automatically derails to "how much of this weight loss was my hard work? And how much of me being sick and not really eating come into play?" So I am nervous that next week will reflect a gain to normalize this week. Ugh I just wish I could be happy about it and not immediately self depricate. Well I hope this is for real and I hope I don't start to think that I can "afford" to eat a bacon ultimate cheeseburger from Jack n the Box.

So is anyone doing anything for Super Bowl? I am getting my cardio in early on both days in effort to kick this snack filled weekend in the ass. I bought a veggie tray, cheese and meat, and a spinach dip. We are making our own personalized pizza so I can control the fat and I am also making a low fat cheesecake I saw on Gina's Skinny Taste website. I am hoping by keeping the items lower in fat if I do overindulge a bit at least there is no guessing on the point values when I made it :)

Love you all keep up the great work

30 Days of me- Day 4

My husband works graveyard and every other weekend, so most of my weeknights (after the gym and cooking dinner) look much like this:

Doggy and I finally getting to relax. I had a really crappy day, I went to my weightwatcher meeting and GAINED a whole freaking lb. Not a 1/2 lb or a few ounces, but a whole freaking pound!! I have no idea how that happened I have been eating my points and exercising my butt off. Its times like this that make me wonder if it worth it sometimes. I shouldn't be getting this discouraged in the beginning, but its not like I fell off the wagon last week, I just felt like that pound was totally undeserved. However, I still dragged my ass to the gym after my meeting and then did my weekly grocery shopping. I baked some lowfat red velvet cupcakes and that seemed to take up some of my time which was nice, but I am still very disappointed.

Oh well, new week right??

Weigh In Day- 238.8

I realized as I was updating my signature to say "good bye 240's" that last year this time I was saying goodbye 220's. Rather than feeling accomplished at losing 2.2bs I found myself beating myself up. It's hard sometimes when you realize how many times you have tried and failed. I feel really optimistic about this this time, but it is still in the back of my head that I am going to fail.

Anyways on a lighter note I lost another 2.2 that brings me to 238.8. Which is a great accomplishment, I just need to get over the disappointment each time I get on the scale. This is a great loss and I should be super excited, but part of me can't help, but think why not more? I got 52 activity points, I didnt touch my spare points why didn't I see a bigger loss? I know its not going to be an easy journey, but I don't understand why it is so hard sometimes. Part of me wonders if I wasnt working out would I lose the same? I have never worked out this hard in my life and had I weight loss just the same....

Happy mood time--- I am down 4.4lbs, which is great. My husband and I also start our 10wk personal trainer/nutrition class on tomorrow!! EEEKKK. I find that he is definitely more supportive and seems to want to follow the program for himself now and he is doing great, he says he is down 7lbs! I am so happy for him and also want to punch him in the face at the same time!! lol

Good Luck Everyone!!